CALM

I just ate a really good sandwich.  natural PB with freshly sliced strawberries and a drizzle of honey on a soft whole grain bread.  I'm really lamenting the fact that I didn't make 2.  Ok. Pause. I'm going to have to go and make another sammy to munch on while I blog

Back.  Along with my delightful sandwich, I've just had a really great day.  After so much sickness, and sleepless nights, and pee filled days.... today felt like this little window where the powerful warm, dry, sun poked it's rays through days of cool wet rain.

Nothing particularly amazing happened today.  In fact, I woke up after maybe 5 hours of sleep feeling a bit dizzy and morning sick. After our normal morning routine, a trip to the chiropractor, and Toys- R- Us for a birthday gift, the kids and I had an early lunch, and then they played away on their own while I did some meal planning.  The kids napped while I took it easy, and then we watched a bit of TV before daddy came home for supper.  We had curry for supper and smoothies for dessert, and then Dave took the kids out for a walk before bed time while I cleaned up and sorted through some toys.  I did a few pages of my scrapbook tonight, and then Dave took a break from school work and we just talked and connected for a while.

So, not a lottery winning sort of ecstatic elation, but I just felt so calm and peaceful today.   Some things that likely helped cultivate this mood

A. My house is really clean!  Yesterday at preschool I had to clean up a lot of pee, and then the dog ripped apart diapers all over the house, and Jesse peed all over the bathroom somehow, and then both my kids had poo-splosions that stunk up the house around dinner time.   I felt so grossed out, that I did an intense wash down and floor scrubbing, and bathroom cleaning and room dusting, and kitchen sanitizing last night.  It felt great waking up to a clean and yummy smelling house this morning!

B.  I've been seeing a chiropractor several times per week for a few now.  The adjustments have really been releasing a lot of tension I didn't realize I was carrying, and helping with pregnancy aches and pains.  I had a great adjustment this morning.

C.  The sun was sparkling through all the gorgeous fall colored trees as we were running a few errands this morning.  A fresh breeze kept the air moving through the house today. ahhh...nature....

D.  My kids were ANGELS TODAY!   They were both happy and polite all day.  And they played nicely together without any encouragement or supervision while  I was getting some things done.    They played on their own for a good hour with the car garage, reading books on the couch, hanging out in the laundry basket snuggling and taking turns pushing different dolls and animals in the dolly stroller.  I felt like they were best friends today, and it was adorable!  When I got Jesse out of his room from quiet time he asked me if he could go wake up Janna to play with him. When Jesse got an un-expected trip out of the house to ride the school bus to the garage with our neighbor, Janna took a few minutes and cried at the window for him when he left.

E.  My husband rocks.  He has been SO helpful after work with the kids and house things, and making sure I'm doing ok.   Even though after 7 pm he has to get right back to work marking or prepping or sending work emails for a few hours, he commits those few hours to us, everyday, even though it means he has no time for himself through the week.

Anyways, I noticed lots of little gifts that helped calm my soul, today.    Ultimately, though, I believe that true Peace and Joy  come from abiding in The Lord, and sometimes I forget that.  Sometimes I get bogged down in my own troubles, and try to do everything perfectly on my own.  It's exhausting.  I'm amazed at how little I sometimes make God out to be, when He delights in taking care of me, and answering my prayers.  Today I am thankful for all the little ways He provided, and the BIG things, like True Peace,  that only He can give.

I should probably go and aim for a few more hours of sleep, tonight.  Tomorrow is my last preschool shift- and who knows what awaits there! Thanks for reading. I'm out.