Well, here I sit another week later without a new baby. Twelve days until my official due date. It feels so far away with my body feeling
like it’s ready to go. I had an OB
appointment on Wednesday and was happy to hear of the progress of things after
an assessment. Baby super low, cervix
softening, 2-3 cms dilated, and measuring almost 40 weeks for size. It
would seem that my body is prepared and ready....but perhaps the baby is
not.
Actually, I have been working on a theory that there must be
3 factors in line for labor to begin. My
body must be ready, my baby must be ready, and I must be ready. I feel like last week, my body and baby were
ready to go, but I wasn’t super prepared or ready, and that threw things right
off. Currently, I feel like my body is good to go! But, I feel like the baby and I are at odds
with the timing of this. You see, for
the past few nights, I have been trying several random natural induction
things. The problem is, that these are
all much easier to do consistently when the kids go down for the night. It’s hard to escape the kids to pump on and
off for good chunks of the day. I feel
nervous about going for a long hard walk with all of them in the event I did
bust.... SO, I have been experimenting in the evenings, but then realizing I am
totally exhausted and have NO DESIRE to go into labor through the night again!
Janna and Robyn were both “through the night” labors, and it
was just so depressing and exhausting compared to Jesse. With Jesse, we woke up fresh and rested and
were checked into a sunny hospital room by 11 am, and along came he at 4pm. It was so much nicer and easier than arriving
at the hospital when it’s dark and quiet and everyone on their shifts seems
exhausted, and YOU have this tremendous amount of work to do on no sleep. I really want a daytime labor this time
around. Pretty please....
So, in the evenings as I have some time to try and get the
contractions rolling (Which doesn’t take too much in the evenings), I literally have been STOPPING mid tracks and
jumping into bed to get some rest. Last
night, I put in about 30 minutes on an exercise ball, and felt some crazy “motion
in my ocean” in the words of a friend. I then realized it was 9:00, and I was pooped
from the day, and I really didn’t WANT to spend the next several hours walking
or bouncing. And so, I just abruptly put
it away and went to bed. I always hope
that I’ll wake up early in the morning and things will kick-start, but I think
my baby is more of a night owl, and wants to appear then!
This little bean has a party every night from about
10-midnight. I really feel like he/she
is trying to flip over breach every night, and I spend the first couple of
hours of the night taking deep breaths with the discomfort of crazy movements
and some contractions that hit with all the movement. I finally fall asleep, and then have been
waking up magically at 4 am each morning feeling queasy and hungry, and
anxious.... and unable to fall back
asleep. Once the day officially starts
with the kids, I am just so wiped, that I have no desire or energy to head out
for that walk or try and get things rolling. And when I do have the urge and time,
contractions are just not starting up during the day time so much!
Perhaps I just need a good sleep and a weekend where Dave
can watch the kids, and I can focus on encouraging this baby to agree that the
day time is totally ok. OR.... Maybe I
need to just cave and go with a night time labor??
All of this, obviously, seems a bit much. The last few weeks of pregnancy really does
make you crazy! Truly.
I do have a much more sane and obvious answer to all my
bodily action and no baby. And the answer
is my toe nail polish color has NOT been right.
You see, I have been sporting a bright
yellow nail polish color for almost a month now. Not knowing the gender, I thought yellow
seemed like an appropriate color to sport.
However, with Jesse, it was blue, and the girls got pink. Perhaps this baby is NOT satisfied with such
a gender neutral welcoming color! So,
today, with MUCH effort, I switched to a nice soft and shimmery purple. Perhaps this will work if it’s a girl in
there! If I still have no baby in a
week, I’ll switch to a blue or green I think.
I am slowly going crazy.......
Well, I am off to catch the end of the kids naps. A friend swung by this morning to watch the
kids and sent me for a bath and nap
and to relax for a couple of hours. True
friendship I tell you, those who come over and send you to bed when you REALLY
need it! Actually, I have had a few
reprieves like that this week, and it’s been AMAZINGLY helpful with my 4 hours
of sleep most nights, and preserving my sanity with the kids. Who, really, are great kids...but busy and
talkative, and just don’t understand that climbing on my stomach REALLY hurts
at this point, and every spill they make and squat I have to take feels mildly
torturous. And asking me a hundred
times each day if the baby can come today, doesn’t REALLY help move anything
along. SO, I have REALLY appreciated
all the END- OF- PREGNANCY- FEEL- LIKE- I- COULD- BLOW –ANY- SECOND help.
With that, I am off to catch a few more zzzz’s.....Thanks
for reading! I’m out.
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